The Stop & Start Spiral: my declaration to end it.

Hello earthlings, 

A conversation I’m having with myself today, that I’ve decided to share with you . 

I am moving forward. It’s slow, but steady. I trust that even though I may not see the fullness of new things coming my way, things are always moving into place. Give thanks to the universe. 

Needing to address an old pattern. In the past, I have a record of starting new projects and not finishing them. It’s a cycle I know well, but it doesn’t align with me any more. To continue being true to myself, I must confront this pattern and kick it out the door. 

This leads me to another question: Why do I get bored so easily? 

The constant state of change. The exhausting stop and go has often left me feeling depleted and unmotivated to accomplish things. It steps on the belief I have in myself. 

I remember in a past version of myself, when the pressure was on, whether that was an important deadline. An external expectation, or feeling like I had no choice, I finished. I delivered. I knew how to close the loop. 

Now, in this freer version of self, in a more self-directed livelihood, the pressure is different. It comes from within and the old tricks do not work anymore. 

So, the declaration is.. I want out of this cycle. It’s stagnant. It’s not real. I am better than a half finished project. I am better. My ideas deserve a conclusion, an end, to be finished. My energy deserves to see things come to its natural end, to feel the closure and to be proud. 

I am Jade. Jade is a finisher. 

This isn’t about being harsh on one self, it’s more so about sharing a deep love and respect for my passions, crafts, artwork, and commitments.   

If you’ve ever felt trapped in a start-stop spiral, know that you aren’t alone. Sometimes the first step to finishing is ending a toxic cycle. 

With love. 💚